DSPS !

I am still awake ! It's 5.33 a.m.(E.S.T).I thought when I moved from India to US,atleast the one thing that I will be cured of, would be my stupid sleep pattern(sleeping in the day & staying awake in the night,like some kind of disgusting nocturnal animal) but,awww shit ! Here I am blogging.All the jetlag & other crap has not cured me of my delayed sleep phase syndrome(DSPS).I am so frustrated !

My Project

Though I don't exactly remember the title of my PhD Project right now,I believe it has something to do with Segregation of granular flows in an hopper geometry. Oh yes, I have to analyze it using DEM.
The thing that bothers me (could turn out to be good/bad) is that there is more than one person interested in this project. First of all ,is my advisor Prof Jennifer Sinclair Curtis.Then,there is Prof Carl Wassgren from Purdue. Then ,there is Dr. Bruno Hancock from Pfizer.Then ,there is Bill ,my labmate.Last & not the least is me,myself.So,instead of reporting my progress to one person ,which in most cases is the advisor ,I have to report my progress to all these people. That too,every week.Now ,It's easier to "goof around" if there is only one person to judge your work. With four other people keeping a close watch on you ,it feels that you are in a vulnerable place all the time. So ,you try hard to keep your "goofing around" in check.

And, did I mention the weekly report.I don't have to show my weekly progress with just words ,with which you can play around.No,sir. I have to present a written document "every" wednesday(Atleast 4-5 pages).To make the situation even more comic , I have to get to the thursday morning telephonic conference with all these people at 9.00 a.m. Now, I am a guy who enjoys his sleep.I wake up early, I mean 8.00 a.m., & man the morning sun just hurts me ! And all this every week.But ,I have to bear up with all this for the sake of my PhD . ohh god !!

I can only remember these lines from the Pearl jam song "Release".


I see the world
Feel the chill
Which way to go
Windowsill
I see the words
On a rocking horse of time
I see the birds in the rain

Oh dear dad
Can you see me now
I am myself
Like you somehow
I'll ride the wave
Where it takes me
I'll hold the pain
Release me

Oh dear dad
Can you see me now
I am myself
Like you somehow
I'll wait up in the dark
For you to speak to me
I'll open up
Release me
Release me